soooooooo....i have not been on here in forever!!! and i think that is a bad thing. i just dont want my husband to find out about this!! so i think i will make a new site with a not so obvious name. any way.

i'm married now!! and own my own home. with all the stress i've gained. i'm now up from 170 to 195!!!

i don't know how this happened. but i hate it. and i'm embarrassed.

my 5 year high school reunion is this year. i cant go looking like this. but i better go for now in case my hubby wakes up. any tips or suggestions please, feel free!!!

xoxo

so, i haven't been on here in a while. i need to start keeping track of what i eat, i was doing soooo much better when i was on here every day. its just been difficult with school and all, and no internet at home, but that should change soon.  so, i haven't been doing the greatest with my workout plan. i try do work out every day, but that just doesn't always happen with school and work and all. its horrible. and when i do work out, sometimes i eat horrible, so its like no progress anyway. but, its getting sooo nice out, so i'm getting really motivated. like last nite, my fiance was eating and i didn't eat any! i was so proud of myself, its a little step i know but its something. so, i just need to get back into the swing of things. try harder. be better. i can do it. i know i can. i just need some support. anyone wanna be buddies? i dunno but ya. i should go to class now.

oh ya, i'm back up to 170 ( i was down to 150!) so, i'm going to make mini goals for myself, my first one is to get to 160. start small for now!

later loves,

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ok so here i am again....more about those workout tapes i ordered....i was watchin tv and this paid program for yoga booty ballet came on and i was like i should order that. and my b/f said go ahead use my debit card. i thought he was joking! but no he said if ur gonna do them then order them. so i did! it came out to a lot more than advertised, but i think its worth it. i finally started it yesterday. the dvds came with a booklet with a workout plan in it, so i'm going to follow that. its a 10 week plan, so i hope i can do it! but i really have to. summer is coming and i want to look hott and not cover up this summer. so i worked out last nite, and i could feel the burn, but funny thing i can't feel any burn today. but its only day 2. so ya. if u want to order some, go to www.ybb.com, or beachbody.com. so far i think its awesome. the workouts really target your butt and abs, but also its a total body toner. so ya.

but does anybody know the sacred heart diet? i would really like to have it! cuz i always end up eating shitty when i work out and i can't do that now! so if anyone has it, let me know!! plz and thanks!

so, ya, i'm engaged, like i said in the last post. so i have over a year to loose the weight, the wedding is next september (08) but i have to get started now! i can't quit and say oh i have time. cuz i don't. it takes time to loose weight and i have to do it now. for myself and my fiance. to look good this summer. so i can feel good about my self. but i have to go to class. later lovelies.

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and if anyone knows the sacred heart diet, let me know!!!

soooo...do u think i've lost any weight? well hell no! i didn't even lose weight for my birthday! and like seriously, i think i'm turning into an alcoholic! my finace works at a bar now part-time, so we go there alot, and i drink every weekend....and i get trashed every weekend. i don't just have a few drinks. i drink to get drunk. but anyway...

i got engaged in december, the wedding is next year, so i need to do some serious overhaulin!!! i eat all the time its bad. but my fiance ordered some workout tapes for me, i better do them. but i have to go now. too many ppl here.

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hey hey hey! well that one dollar work out tape turned out to be shitty....BUT i happened to go to goodwill today for some reason, and found some pilates tapes! omg i was soooo excited, cuz i wanted to order them when i saw the paid program on tv, but i didn't have the money. and now i got two tapes for 3 dollars!! oh my well i am happy. and i did the shorter one today already and it really works the abs! so i hope the other longer one is just as good, and i'm sure it will be. well, tomorrow is the last day of first semester here, so i prolly won't be on for two weeks! sucks but maybe i'll find a way to get on. i hope so!!

i really wanted have lost some weight by christmas, and i prolly still can, just not as much as i wanted. but oh well. BUT, my birthday is the end of January, and i'll be 21 and going out to the bars, so i have to lose some weight by then! i can't look horrible on my 21st birthday! so any tips would be good. but ya, i have to go study for my last final tomorrow, talk to ya girls later!!

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P.S. i changed my layout!!!! what ya think?